Early Easter morning, four and a half years ago, life for our family changed forever. I awoke to the sound of an otherworldly noise and Tina’s body convulsing uncontrollably. That event began us onto a path where we would discover that Tina was suffering from late onset Epilepsy. That path would include long periods of Tina being home-bound and a non-stop roller-coaster of trying to figure out which medications would strike the best balance between controlling her seizures but also limit the debilitating side-effects of chronic fatigue and loss of focus – that effort has only been marginally successful.

On July 14th 2010, our path took another turn when Tina underwent a five week long surgical procedure where doctors at University Hospitals in Cleveland Ohio implanted multiple electrodes into her brain in the hope that this would allow them to locate the spot in her brain that is responsible for her seizures and then surgically remove that spot in an attempt to control her seizures without medication. Unfortunately after 3 surgical attempts to locating this seizure focus, the clock ran out and the risk of continuing this procedure became too great, so they removed all of the electrodes, and sent her home with very little to show for our 5 weeks in the hospital.

When we left Cleveland two summers ago we couldn't imagine that we would go back anytime soon. Those five weeks in the hospital were very disappointing for Tina and difficult for our kids. However, over the course of the last year and a half, Tina's seizures have become progressively more frequent, and medications have become progressively less effective at controlling her seizures. So, after consulting with Tina's neurologists, it is clear that we are in for yet another turn in the path of life.

We will once again be making the trip to University Hospitals in Cleveland, and on Wednesday January 11th, Tina will once again undergo the same procedure to implant electrodes in her brain to monitor seizure activity in the hope that they can determine the physical location of her seizures and surgically remove it.

This is not a path that we went looking for nor did we anticipate how sharply our lives would change literally over night when four and a half years ago these seizures began. There have been days when we have wondered as to why these things were happening and what God was up to in this. What we have learned is best summed up by the Apostle Paul in his letter to the church at Rome where he said that the paths that God lays out for us are "beyond tracing out." We may not understand this path or where it’s leading us, but what we do know is that we would rather follow God’s untraceable path than to follow any path we could lay out for ourselves. This blog is our attempt to bring others along with us as we walk along God’s untraceable path.

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

A Day on the Town

Our day started early.  We were up and on the road this morning at 7:30 after enjoying a lovely complimentary breakfast at the hotel consisting of some kind of prefab circular... egg... thing on an english muffin with a slap of meat product that I think was sausage - the Comfort Inn version of an Egg McMuffin no doubt.  Unfortunately we only got about half way to the hospital when we realized that we had forgotten Tina's meds despite being reminded that she needed to bring them, so we had to turn around and go back to the hotel to get them.  Needless to say we arrived at 8:15 for Tina's 8:00 MRI that we were supposed to arrive at 15 minutes early.

The MRI went well, Tina's anti-seizure meds had kicked in by the time they were feeding her into the machine and she was feeling the customary sleepiness that comes with them (yes even at 8:30 in the morning after a full nights sleep she's ready for a nap).  The MRI tech was quite surprised when, after the 50 minute MRI was complete, Tina had fallen asleep and asked if she could be left in for a few more minutes.  The tech had never heard that one before.  Interestingly enough we talked to the neuro-surgeon's nurse tonight (yes we have her home phone number) and she said that the surgeon was very excited about Tina's MRI.  Apparently he's never seen an MRI that was that good - no one can lay that still.  Leave it to Tina to out perform the average MRI-Joe by falling asleep in the MRI machine that's so loud that you have to wear earplugs.  Tonight the nurse said that the surgeon was so excited this afternoon talking through Tina's surgery tomorrow that he can hardly wait to get to it, and she said, "the surgeon never gets excited."  Hope he can get to sleep tonight...

After Tina's MRI she had an appointment with  pre-op testing.  They did the normal vital checks, read through all of the medical forms, yada, yada, yada.... then sent us up for Tina to get a chest X-ray.  The neuro-surgeon's nurse had asked us to call her when we were done with Tina's appointments so she and the surgeon could talk to us.  I had called her cell a couple times but didn't get her so we went to the neuro-surgery department and had her paged.  She came out and got us and it was like reunion time.  We sat and talked for a bit about life and kids, and that kind of stuff then she realized that she had forgotten to grab Tina's chart from the desk.  When she went up to get it the people at the reception desk didn't think Tina had a chart because they just assumed we were just "dropping by" from out of town to see her personally.  The nurse assured them that in spite of our familiarity Tina was definitely a patient and they were able to dig up her chart.

Eventually we sat down with the surgeon as well and talked through the procedure for tomorrow.  It was pretty straight forward, nothing we hadn't done before...at least a few times.  He told us that he would be doing the craniotomy (removing the skull) in a different location than before because in the process of going through this the last time they were able to determine that her seizure focus was further back on her brain so they would be placing the grid of electrodes on her brain further back than before.

In the end everyone is very optimistic.  The surgeon was almost giddy - and if you ever met the surgeon you'd know that's saying something - but he was pretty optimistic about the possibility that they will be able to pinpoint exactly where Tina's seizures are coming from and that the part of her brain they suspect that location to be is a very safe part of the brain to operate on.  What that means is they are very comfortable with removing a larger section of her brain without the risk of adverse effects on Tina.  The larger the section they can take out the more likely Tina will be to be seizure free post surgery.  That is good news and we are guardedly optimistic.

After meeting with the surgeon we decided to make a pass through the Epilepsy Monitoring Unit (EMU) which is the unit that Tina spent all of her 5+ weeks last time.  It was like homecoming.  In all there might have been 2 people on today that we didn't know.  It only took about 10 seconds in the unit and a party broke out in the hallway.  Everyone was excited to see us and they had all heard that we were coming back.  In fact they had already been in the process of getting Tina's room all setup for her.  Yes it will be the same room we were in last time - Tina wouldn't want it any other way.  When we first got there everyone recognized me before they recognized Tina - none of them had ever seen Tina with hair, so I said Tina should have wrapped a towel around her head before hand and then they would have recognized her.  It was certainly an answer to prayer that there were so many familiar faces there.  We had hoped that the people we had gotten to know so well the last time would still be there, and it really put us at ease when they were.  Not only that, but that they were genuinely excited to see us, which is so reassuring to Tina.

By the time we left the EMU it was getting to be early afternoon and Tina wanted to know if I wanted to eat in the hospital cafeteria - not funny.  After eating 3 meals a day for 5+ weeks in the hospital cafeteria, never will be too soon to eat there again.  Instead we had lunch at Jimmy Johns and then went back to our hotel for a few hours.  We decided to go back out and catch dinner and a movie and enjoy some time on the town before Tina's life gets restricted to the same 15 square feet in the EMU for the next who knows how long.

In all it was a good day.  Tina is feeling pretty wiped out tonight and was already fast asleep by 9:30.  It will be an early morning tomorrow, although not as early for me as it would be if I was doing Men's Fraternity in the morning (sorry Tim, Steve, and Mike).  We need to be at the hospital shortly after 6:00 as she'll be the first case of the day.  I'm not exactly sure what time she'll go into surgery but, as I've done in the past, I'll throw up a quick blog post letting everyone know when she's gone into surgery and when she's back out.

Once again we would ask that you would pray for God's hand to guide the surgeon (Dr. Miller) and his nurses, and that Tina would recover quickly from the surgery with little pain.  However, more than anything else we would ask that you would pray that God's glory would be put on display through us and this situation and that all those involved will know that there is indeed a God in heaven who cares deeply for his creation.

6 comments:

Lisa said...

hey guys. praying for you. Wish we could come and play a few rounds of euchre during the down moments. Challenged by your testimony....Lisa

linusvpelt said...

Praying this morning for you. And encouraged by the calmness and patience you portray, knowing that this continues to be a great trial, no one would guess it from your attitude of trust and faith that Gods way is perfect.

linusvpelt said...

Praying this morning for you. And encouraged by the calmness and patience you portray, knowing that this continues to be a great trial, no one would guess it from your attitude of trust and faith that Gods way is perfect.

Anonymous said...

Matt and Tina, We prayed for you at Men's Fraternity this morning, and at home and elseware, earlier in the week. I pray that you feel His presence and His pleasure.

Carl D

Craig Clark said...

Praying for you both right now. Craig

truspartan said...

My friends --- praying for you throughout the day today. We prayed collectively in MF this morning as well. Missed you this morning Matt but Tim did an awesome job and you are right where you need to be!